Wish List

Isn;t nice to know that even though I can;t stand the formalities of the holiday that I WILL exploit it commercialistic nature. I WANT a PS2....like REALLY bad!!!! Sara and I have this tug of war of PS2 vs XBox. I MUST get one. Damn I wish I was rich or had rich relatives. You think if I express mail a letter to the north pole it would work? My God, I have become delusional in my quest to get one. This sux....but I still want one.

It's the Most Aggracating Time of the Year

Well...Christmas Eve is here which means I get to spend an "interesting" evening with my family and the extendeds for about four hours of non-plust entertainment. I'll also have the annual fight of not playing Santa Claus as I refuse to lower myself that far. Needless to say, not looking forward to any of it at all, but I'll do what I usually do: come in, kiss and say hello, help carry in presents, help carry out presents, get something to eat, comment on how good it is, and then hide in my cousin's bedroom with her as we both complain about the situation outside. That';s a normal family Xmas right?

Ugh!

Well..it finally happened. I have hit rock bottom on the economic scale. I was so hungry and trying ot avoiding spending money on take out that I actually made myself a plate of....gulp...Spam. The fact that I had a can in the cupboard shocked me.....the fact that I actually popped it open and cooked it disgusts me. I was so turned off by the mere sight of it that I cooked the "patties" beyond all recognition. What have I come to????

In the Christmas Mood

Since Adam keeps bugging me about keeping up with this blog, here we go:

I spent much fo the day cleaning up some choreography stuff and realizing that I need to make some mad cash doing this because I am dirt poor and ready to fling myself on some corner Columbus and sell my big ass to the lowest bidder. On a cheery note, I did laundry at mom's house and got in the mood to decorate so I borrowd some Xmas stuff and came home and decorated like a mad man. Yeah, Xmas is a week away, but better late than never. Surprisingly, I did a damn good job. I even have a small table top Xmas tree that I decorated (do you understand how hard it is to get a string of lights onto a 1 foot tree).

On an even better note, the whole green card situation is looking better and better. I don;t want to jinx anything so until I have definitives I will stay silent.

I am seriously looking into going over to the Uk and working and living for a while. I need a change of scene and some time away from some sects of people. NO, that is not running away from my problems (see how I anticipate your accusation ;b), it;s just a way of quieting the loud voices outside my head. Besides, outside of New York, I have had this mad obsession with the UK ever since I was a child. So we'll see.

Thank God I am in my last semester of school. I am tired of the hoops, the red tape, and the bullshit that goes on in my department. I am ready to move on. I would have ot be CRAZY to try and get my PhD. It is just NOT worth it to me to be locked up in an office for the rest of my life grading and writing scholarly articles. I would rather get a broken glass enema than end up as one of the profs I work with.

satisifed, Adam?