Monday Mission

So Sara pointed me to the latest in blog fads. Seems really interesting altho the idea of answering some of these questions totally goes against my walled-upness (that is SO not a word), but I shall answer what I can and plead the fifth on those that are none of anyone's damn business. Does that mean I fail the mission??

PromoGuy's Monday Mission 2.18

1. Do you have any tattoos? If no, why not and what would you get if you did get one. If you do have one or more, tell us how you came to get it, and why you chose the design you got inked with.

Nope. Never had the urge to get one. My piercing was my one "crazy" thing to do althought I have always wanted to get a tatoo either on my foot or my shoulder blade of camel drama masks. I don;t get it either since camels are not my favorite animals, but why fix the faulty identification if it ain;t broke.

2. Has anything ever happened that caused you to believe, or disbelieve, in a Higher Power.

Well, I definitely do believe in a higher power/force/controlling factor. I don;t necessarily call it God or follow some kind of church dogma to explain it to myself. I definitely have my own set of "different" beliefs, but there is definitely a place for that higher power. Something has to be controlling all this, right? As for certain things, well, I could go with silly wishes that come true, but I rely mostly on connections. I believe everything and everyone is connected in some way and the people who I meet in my life, sometimes by the oddest of circumstances, who make a huge impact and change my or my views when I least expect it are, I believe, part of that certain something. It makes me wonder how they come into my life.

3. Have you ever seriously considered, or even attempted, suicide?

Oh yeah. Oh yeah. As much as life, and my life, pisses me off and is a constant daily struggle, I still do enjoy what it has to bring me. Besides, I would never get to meet those crazy people in my life if I had not stuck around. What doesn;t kill you makes you stronger.

4. Has anyone you have known committed suicide?

Yes. Three friends.

5. This weekend you and I are going to the nature park for a picnic. I'll bring the blanket and make all the arrangements. You pack the picnic basket. What's inside?

Um....food? Fine fine...the details. Deviled eggs, potato salad, funky sandwiches, utensils.

6. Have you ever been mad at God for something that happened (or didn't happen)?

Nope. No point to it. Things may or may not be predestined but I can;t blame anyone else for the things that go wrong in my life. I make my own decisions and I have to live with them. When they do or don't happen on larger outside scales, I just have to say, "whatever is meant to be will be," and "everything happens for a reason." I really believe everything has a purpose even if it is not immediately identifiable.

7. Post (or describe) an image of someone that is no longer with us. Tell us about that person.

Hm. Probably my grandmother: short, stocky woman with a lot of energy. I always remember her with stark white hair and wrinkles that spoke of a loaded history of tears and sorrow. She used to aggravate me as a child until I learned more about her life. She was a survivor of the Armenian holocaust (her escape/resue is just an amazing story). Since she was the only survivor in her family (I assume) our family line begins and ends with her. As the matriarch she was the root of our family tree and my biggest regret was that I can;t trace my family history past her. She made the most amazing food and I used to watch in amazement at all the old-world things she used to do (like healing methods and such).

BONUS: Who are you?

No one.