What's Worse?

Your perception of someone which ends up slightly skewed from what the reality is? Or the reality that the person is everything you despise and dislike in people?

On an unrelated note, I must be the only person I know who treats their dreams as reality. Are they so vivid that when I wake up I think they really happened? Or am I so emotionaly shaken by my dreams that I wonder if they really did/will happen? or that the remotest possiblity of it happening bums me out? Or maybe it's nothing post-cognivitve and it;s just my paranoid subconscious creating more chaos. I woke up from a horrible dream that just completely depressed me and I feel so bummed out right now. And now that I think about it, it is related to the first part of this blog. Is it stupid to set your hopes on/in one person or is it ignorant and naively hopeful pessimism?

My head is starting to hurt. . .