Fleeting Moments of Speech

How do I set a laser printer to stun?

I've somewhat abandoned the blog thing for a while because I just have not felt like writing; partially because I am always at rehearsal, and partially because i am too frustrated and morose to write. I HATE not having a steady paycheck and having that starving artist feeling. The job market SUCKS. I mean I did manage to get a job teaching at a private university and I got bumped up to 5 classes at the studio, so I will do fine....but ain't until August. I have to figure something out until then or I am so screwed. I go home everynight and can;t go to sleep because I am so stressed and then sleep in so late. I think this is the earliest I have been up in 2 weeks. I am hating living here by myself and a knowing that all my Tampa friends are too far away and not nearby to go hang out with anymore....god knows the inconvenience for my across-the-bay friends is too great. Ugh. I hate feeling like this. Couple all this with the recent development of something being stirred and awakened in me by someone.....this is not a good feeling for me to be having simply because I don;t want to have it, deal with it, or face it. But I like it....and I like how it makes me feel sometimes. This sucks aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaass.....